Please Please Pray!!!

Most of you reading this love me and my family and for that I am so grateful and it gives me more freedom to just be real with you right now.  I really need your prayers especially through the next month.  As you have read countless times on this blog I am a task person.  I have to fight hard to choose to love my family over completing a task that needs to be done.  It is a thorn in my flesh and when life is quite it is not so hard but now this desire is raging within me.  There is a lot to be done to get my grandmothers house ready and I will be the one doing a lot of the painting and such because John has to work.  I have to really choose to stay in there with the kids when I am gonna want to be getting things done.  I am just on edge and my time with God has come to a halt in the last week or so.  We just had a spankfest at our house and yes the boys were disobedient and needed the spanking but they didn't need it from their angry mother.  I had to go back and ask both of them to forgive me for spanking them in anger.  So please just pray that God would shower His grace and mercy on me this month and that I would daily make the harder choices for me.