Tuesday, June 30, 2009

We Are Moving To....

Reform, Alabama

By the time you read this post it will be a few days old but right now this is fresh and raw and writing helps me process. See, I already had this post written. In fact, I wrote it on June 30th and just saved it rather than publishing it. We had a plan that seem to make the best sense for our family. We were moving back to Denver. We had our reasons and they were good - solid reasons. We saw that place as a place that offered "job security" for John, a place we really loved living - that really wouldn't be starting over, and an opportunity to help his sister in the coming year (her husband is going to Iraq). It seemed like a good place to "settle" for a few years till we figured out what next. So we had a plan and we were getting ready to tell others our plan (but for some reason neither of us felt free to tell other - now we know why)...

"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." Prov 16:9

Over the last week, my heart has become unsettled about the decision and I didn't see a confidence in John that I needed before moving forward with plans. The last few weeks living in Kennedy (Kennedy is 20 min from Reform) were very very hard for me. I was very discouraged about living there and I felt like we couldn't go back for a few reasons. What God has shown me and John (separately but at the same time) is that those reasons were for our comfort sake. The reality is that there is a calling on our life from God to bring the Gospel to this area. But we really struggled with what God did in our life that landed us in NYC for the summer. I mean in order for us to be in Reform John has to have a job and for 2 months he did not have a job. And what if this happens again, then what? So last night as all this came to the surface and as all these questions were raised John said "the last few weeks I have thought about these questions and every time I have come back to the reality that God's calling has to be enough." This morning I looked back over some post I wrote early in our time in Kennedy and this one reminded me of what God was doing in our lives and heart. Specifically, this post reminded me of the verse God gave me about being there and it still applies in the very same ways today as it did when He gave it to me.

"You make known to me the path of life, In your presence is the fullness of joy, at your right hand are pleasures forevermore." Ps 16:11

So this is it. And as far as John's job goes - for now he will stay with Round Arch and travel for some projects and work from home for some projects. Eventually, he will be able to work from home again but in the meantime he will travel.

4 comments:

Jessie said...

Wow! Can't wait to catch up in person...

April Brown said...

phew...my heart cannot handle Denver :) I mean, I've just had my heart set on you guys coming back to AL. So glad to hear that you are!!! I thought you lived in Reform before NYC...no? Which means you're not going back to your grandmother's house??

Shelley said...

Jessie took my word, "WOW!" I am amazed at your commitment and the obvious calling God has on your lives in Reform. I went back and read your old post. Aren't you glad you blogged that so that you know what God did in your heart back 5-6 months ago. He gave you a taste of THE big city this summer. Sure there are nice things about living in a big city but you are right, they are for our comfort. There are definite pluses about a small town. #1 reason to go there--He is telling you to go. That brings peace I am sure.

Jenn said...

Wow!! I have to say that of course I wish you were coming here, but of course I understand whole-heartedly and completely your reasonings for going to Reform. Promise to visit though, K? :)